My Very First Post! :)

I have undergone many changes in the last two years, or since I have moved to Mobile.(Ohkay, so that first sentence sounds like I'm about to tell you that I had a sex change ha ha BUT I most certainly did not!) Anyways, mainly spiritual changes not so much physical. ;)One thing I have noticed about myself is that I do not go by the name "Shay" as much. In my job at Ruby Tuesdays I go by "Kylie." At school I also go by "Kylie." The only time I am called "Shay" is at home and at church (and at church I usually get called Miss Drama Leader). I also have several nicknames that I have somehow picked up throughout the years. For example: Shay-Shay, Shay Cakes Baby, Josephine Brown, Coffee Creamer, Miss Kylie, Kylie Cyrus, ShayKill O'Neal, Shaylynn, Lulu and Sister Ellis just to name a few. I do not know where some of these came from but still I respond most every time.
While pondering upon my name situation I've also been analyzing myself in general. And to be frank, I have not been at all happy with what I have found. I decided one day I was going to change that! I hated who I was and who I'd been (and at this point you should all go listen to 'Who I am Hates Who I've Been by Relient K...just sayin)! So, where do you go to find yourself when your feeling lonely? The good ole B-I-B-L-E-! I absolutely love the book of Hosea, its my fav! I've read that particular book several times, but this time was different. And with this time, I broke down and cried. Which is a rarity for me. And I read this book over and over and over on this particular day. I do not know how and or why Hosea took that stupid hooker back everytime, but He did. And to know that I have a God who loves me and takes me back everytime with unconditional love makes me giddy!!! lol After wiping my eyes and trying to make sense of the notes I jotted down I eventually came up with a couple of lil sermonettes. Ohkay, so 16 to be exact. But I have decided that it is not what color hair you have or what kind of build you have that will make a man love you. Its about TRULY who you are on the inside. Thats so gay I know...lol But I have never in my life meant it until now. I have decided I'm going to take girls of all ages in our church and do small groups with them for about 16 or so weeks. We do not truely realize as females that God has our husbands chosen for us. Because if we did, we wouldn't worry about it so much. I'm too busy making sure my hairs perfect and my nails are did! When I should really be making sure that my heart is so lost in God that my man is seeking him in order to find me! I am going to take these young women of God through not only a lesson of unconditional and faithful love but also a dating course. Girls are sluts nowadays! *With the exception of Hannah Montana!* They need to know how to talk, walk, dress and behave like a lady. Not only a lady but a Woman of God.
So in closing, as my father would say, I now have a general idea of who I am and what I need to work on. Not who everyone tells me I am and not what everyone calls me. I am Kylie LeShay Stanford. I'm not perfect but I'm not flawless. I'm not right but I'm not wrong. I'm not ugly but I'm not beautiful. I'm not smart but I'm not dumb either. And my hubby will love every bit of my 4'11'' self! Because God created me in his image and you can't get a wife better than that.
Psalms 139:13-16- go read it punk.
****Oh! And for the record Kylie LeShay means boomerang from the fairy palace. Most names mean bold or warrior or beautiful or something awesome like that. But not mine! Oh no sir! What can i say?I'm a very unique, and that includes my name.****
-Name Meanings: Compliments of Hayley Croft-